LADYXPLICIT69

ok, well i haven’t updated my blog since, whaaat January?  it’s May, so it’s been about 5 months. OMG, im finally 16. (*f-you guys you don’t know when my birthday was) It was awesome and now i can finally get my permit during the summer. My Scion is just parked in the garage and never been moved, well except on sundays. i kinda feel bad for it, but i go in it and chill in it sometimes ;] hhhmm in March i started dating this one guy, i met at my party. April, party party party! May, which is now. im kinda broken up from the guy i was dating for 2 months. we’ll see what’ll happen between us after summer. Speaking of summer, i’m going Cali for a while ;] if i don’t go, i most likely might be working at my dad’s work. i need the cash. hopefully, i can take my permit test and pass. then in December get my intermediate license. i can’t wait to drive. My parents are thinking of selling my car and gettin’ a new one. I want an SUV, but with gas prices, good gracious, i want one of those hybrid cars. But it God permits, then i’ll get my SUV and gas prices will go down ;] i have learned to be more responsible since im paying for my cellphone bill. I want to shop but im saving my money for Cali cuz i’ll need it. i need new Hollister, American Eagle, Old Navy, Forever 21, Fox, Nikes, Jordans, and other stuff. Speaking of brands, i just got into Stussy. This cool brand with the kinda of graphics i like. They are pretty legit. It’s a cool, urban brand. I want to buy some if i go to San Francisco or  L.A. Can’t wait for the summer! im sick of school. and omg! i hope i don’t transfer. my credits are going to get f-’d up and all. i hope there’s not enough money to open up Ukudu. i mean if Sanchez is lacking a whole bunch of stuff, what more to open up a new school? it’s crazy, our frickin’ government is hella delusional. enough about that. DRAMA is extra weird these days, im not having drama with girls. it’s more with old flames and friends. Everyone seems to know everything. Things get out soo fat, im like "whoaaa, why don’t i know these things?" it’s hella crazy. but that’s life, it’s UNPREDICTABLE. we shouldn’t take it for granted but to live it everyday. No matter how bad the day is, APPRECIATE!!!! God is good. ’til next time.

you know you love me;
gel ;D

New Year isn’t always about resolutions and fireworks. i think resolutions on new year’s is stupid because new year’s isn’t the only time to make resolutions. resolutions can be made any day. and it’s stupid cuz some people don’t even do it. so make sure to make resolutions that you would actually commit to. New Year’s is just a day that opens up to a new year. a fresh start of a new year. new accomplishments, purposes, conflicts, and etc. it’s a time to reflect on how to make yourself better,
—–at first, i thought i didn’t change, but i have but it was for the better. im still nice but im tired of people taking advantage of me, so i’ve learned to speak up and stnad up for myself. although i have people always talking crap about me, im so over it. i mean GROW UP! talking smack is so elementary/middle school. why don’t you guys focus on other things like passing your classes and yourself then what im doing! i don’t live to please people all the time, i don’t care what you have to say. everyone has their own opinions but if you constantly talk crap about one person, people get tired of it and you lose. i’ve found who my REAL friends are. i mean im friends with everyone but like i know who are the ones i TRUST, the ones that will be there for me. on my fam bam situation, i don’t know if it’s getting better or worse, but im dealing with it. even if it’s tiring and stressful. school is ok, im doing ok, but i want to do better. cuz i know i can do more than im EXPECTED of. LOVE: this year was tough. i’ve been through alot that makes me wonder "is there really someone out there that would treat me the way i want to be treated? is he out there?" like i have met some very nice, amazing, handsome, smart guys but how come nothing ever happens? it’s like im always being tested. but it’s cool, cuz i use it in the next relationship. i mean like right now, i like a guy. but it seems like it isn’t fo’ real. i don’t want to be play’d no more. i am not a toy. but it’s not like im desperate like some other girls. i’ve learned to find a person who would treat me right, not find a guy who’s hot & is a good kisser, but to find a person who understands how i feel, to make the effort just to call me or text me just to say he misses me and stuff like that. i REALIZED that im a romantic person. i’ve realized that im always LEARNING for everything. everything you do is useful in some way.
*all the words that i have capitalized are the words that i’ve seen in me this year.
-Grow up - i have matured and im always trying to become a better person everyday.i
-Trust- trust is a very big part of life. with the things that have happened in the past, i have developed trust issues, but im starting to trust people.
-Realized- i’ve realized many things which is making me become a better person. im always trying to see what’s the point of everything that happens to me.
-Real- it’s hard to find real people nowadays. im trying to be as real as i can be, even if you don’t like it.
-Learning- i learn everyday and build from there.
-Love- i can never stop loving. even if it hurts alot, a person can never stop loving. it’s a very beautiful thing ;]
-Expected- im always expected of things, but i try to go beyond expectations & potential.